you finally called me at 4 plus today..was really glad that i can finally hear your voice..
i'm not sure if i really mistaken you or not..i hope it was just some misunderstanding..
right now..
i dunno whether to hate or love you..
it just feels so much complicated..how i wish things was much easier to be understood and solved..
but it just ain't like that..
sigh..
nvm..its alright..i alr said i will disappear away from your side..so ya..decision made!
no matter how much i misses you..i will keep myself away from you..
in this way..you will not quarrel with qiu qi anymore..
its heartbreaking for me..
but i have to do so..
and it might sound silly for me to do so..but i alr am stupid..thats why..
benny oh benny..how i wish things never happened before..
then i wouldn't be so hurt right now..
i hate myself..
to fall so deep into this relationship..will try using these two weeks to forget about you entirely..
and hope i can really do that..
sigh..