I'm seriously going to suffer from emotional breakdown soon..
Have no idea whats on my mind..
Am i thinking too much???
Or are there people hiding things from me???
My life is so screwed up that i wish i could just hide in my fantasy world..
Reality is so cruel to me..
Have been crying almost everday..
Hoping that things could turn out better..
But once it became better..something else will happen to bring me all the way down again..
Makes me feel so hopeless and i'm totally clueless about what the hell is happening right now..
Am i really that naive that i cant even get whats happening???
I'm able to help my friends with all the toubles they are in..but i cant seem to help myself..
I can only see myself as though i'm dropping in a bottomless pit where i'm not getting anywhere else..

For once..i feel like giving up..
Giving up everything that i once have..
Feel like losing my memories..
SO that i need not get troubled or cry anymore..
The route is just right in front of me..
Yet so unclear..
No matter how much i try to look..
No matter how much i try..
I just cant find the way out..
Because i'm already stuck in the middle of nowhere and there is no exit at all..

I'm in such a dilemna..hoping that someone could just give me a piece of advice..
sigh...sob.. :'(