It has come to the end of the year 2009 and a new start in 2010..
I'm trying my best to forget everything that happens in 2009..
All the sadness..
Trying hard..
And hopefully i can get my both feets up for the upcoming 2010 days..

Finally..i send you the msg that i had to..
Told all my friends i've put a load off my mind and heart..
Was back to myself for the whole of last night showing how happy i was when i wasn't..
But in the end..they manage to see that i wasn't myself at all..
And that was because i drank..
Wat made things worst wasn't about me getting drunk..
But the fact that i fell somehow and hit my head..
Till now..its still giving me headache and its swollen..
Didn't dare to tell mum & dad..
So i just kept quiet all the way..
Now..i can only sleep sideways towards my left so that i'll not press on to my head injury..
Its really pain..

Oh well..other than the pain..there were also sweet memories..
Spent my night with him on the 30th to 31st..
Though it was just barely a few hours..at least i manage to have him by my side..
It shall be the very last thing that will be kept in my heart..
Because i know that it is all over..no turning back..
Even if there is..you will still make the same decision by chosing her over me..
And there's nothing much i could do as both of you has been together for three years..
For as much as i know..she still has a biggest place in your heart..
No matter how much i hope for your return..it'll only be my wishful thinking..
Sigh..

I'm dead tired now..
Goodnight..and......to you too...