I seriously have no idea whats true to me anymore..
Just basically taking a step at a time..
Feeling more disappointed now and then..
Getting quieter as days passed..

But i'm still trying..
Trying my best to smile my way through..
So that people will not know how i actually feel..
I love you too much..that it only makes me feel down all the time..
If you ever want to let me go..please tell me..
I just hope that it wont happen..

My heart is like a bottle now..
And its going to overflow anytime..
Why? Why am i so scared all the time?
I'm trying my best to be the best compared to the past..
I just wanna be loved..
But it just hurts..
Sobz...........

Does our first month anniversary mean nothing to you?
Do you know that i'm waiting for the msg from you since evening..
Even if its an advanced wishes..at least its better than nothing..
But no..i waited in vain..
I Cried..cried badly..
Thinking thoroughly whether i mean anything to you since the first day till now..
I might have broke your trust that day in the club..
But i'm trying to improve myself in anyway that i could..
Just wanna gain back your trust in me..
But trust wont mean anything if i dun mean anything to you..get wat i mean?
I promised and sweared that i wont do anything wrong to break your trust again..
And i did mark my words till now..
I didn't break my promise at all..
Sigh..
No matter what i say right now its all useless..
Because this is only a blog to express how i feel..
Its not as though you'll know about it after i post it here..
Sob.......