Its all over..28th dec 2009..
I didn't mean to lie to you once again..
And this was just the second time..unlike what you thought..
Was really drunk the whole night but you didn't believe me..
Said i broke your trust again..
Sigh..thought we could last longer..
Didn't know it ended so soon..unexpected..

Time passes so fast..and our second month is just right ahead..
Now that you're going in army..i still hope to spent that last week of yours with you..
But all hopes are smash..
All my fault..hate it..
Why am i so stupid..
Drink,drank and DRUNK!!!
Just because i'm sad nowadays..i ended up resorting to drinking all the time..
So not me..
Thought by doing so..it can numb myself..
And yes,drinking did make me numb myself..temporary ONLY..
Worst of all..
Just because i wanted to drink so badly,i lied to my boy..
And now he is literally ignoring me..

Oh well..only Jan and Kly is by my side now..
Then again..they have yet to settle their own problems..
So i cant always lean on their shoulder to cry..
Sigh..who can i look for to pour out all my problems at one go now..
I feel so much restless..energy is drainin out entirely..
Haven get enough rest at all..
Went to look for you yesterday morning..in the end it had to end up in a cold war..

And what makes me feel even worst..
Is when you asked me to pack my stuff and leave..
How do i tell you that i don't want to..
This time i wont deny its my fault..
But i really dont wish for all these to happen..
The very first time when you said the same thing..i cried..
Now you said it once again..
And this time is for real..
But i cant defend myself anymore..told you last night that one more time you mention the word "break up"..i'll not think twice..
As i've said..its my fault..so i'll just have to bear the consequences..and for that..i accept it..
Just hope that you'll accept me back once again..

But for now..i'll just leave you alone to cool down..
I'm sorry..really am..