For a moment in time..i was so afraid of losing him..
Sometimes when he gets angry..i've no idea how to make him happy..
Maybe i'm just pure stupid with all these..
Maybe i'm not good with words..
Maybe i'm not a good girlfriend for him..
But i'm really trying my very best to make things work out..
Trying my best to change to suit him..
Its just hard.. :(
I just hope that he understands how i feel..
All i need is that little understanding..

Sometimes i feel really bad to tell cass everything..esp all my probs..
Because each individual has their own problem..and i believe she has one too..
But seems like she is the only one whom i really confide into..
She's the only one who understands me in and out..
And i'm really glad to have such a good friend like her..
Thanks Cass..

Now that i've someone added to my life..
I hope that he can be someone like cass..
Hmm..
Few things i love about my boy..is that he will pamper and sayang me when i cry..
And he don't mind the long distance that he has to go just to fetch me all the way home..
From Yio Chu Kang to Harbour Front..sometimes even from Woodlands all the way home..
Well..that's the sweet part of him..
He even called me almost every night just to chat with me till i fall asleep..
But i disappoint him time and time again because i fell asleep even before he calls me..
For that..i'm really sorrry.. :(

From now onwards..i promise to change and make things work out well for both of us..
No matter what happens..i'll do my best..
Especially when our first month is reaching..
Cant wait for that day..
But one thing i hope for him to do is..not to scold me so fiercely again..
It really is scary..and sometimes his words do hurt me a lot..
And i'll end up crying in silence at times just to make sure he doesn't know i'm crying..because he'll worry..
Oh well..after all..which boyfriend doesn't worry about his girl??? :)

Hmm..after talking about all this..i just feel that the person i should thank most is my darling Cass..
Without her..i wouldn't even get to know my boy..
Without her..i wouldn't have grown so much..
Without her..i woudn't even have such a good sister like her..
Without her scolding me all the time..i wouldn't have woken up to my senses..
Without her..i wouldn't have gained so much..
Without her..i wouldn't be who i am today..
Without her..i'm just nothing but a piece of shit..
Because she's the only one who pick me up when i falls..
She's the only who bothers scolding me when i do wrong..
She's the only one who lend me a shoulder when i cry..
She's the only one who's heart will ache seeing me cry..
She's the only one who bothered to spend time to talk to me..
And most importanly..she's the only one who's always there for me 24/7..

Not forgetting the second important person..is my another good fren thasha..
Even though she didn't say much to me..
But as a good fren..i could see that she does care..
Just that she didn't wanna interefere with my life..
Sometimes she thinks that she has no right to say anything..
But as a matter of fact..she does..
Both thasha and cass have became the most important two in my life that,without them..i am not who i am today..
And this i promise..that i'll heed their advice from now on and never will i neglect them again over small things..
Nothing will ever change our friendship.. <3