Gosh..
Felt totally disappointed today..
Not with the people around me..
But with my performance today..
Though was having fever,flu and all..
I tried really hard to put my focus during training..
And at first it went really well..
But towards the end of the training..
When everything seems good..
I made a big mistake..
That caused my flyer to injure herself during single-ex..

Well..i was the back spot for my flyer Joanna..
And the main base was Mx..
Mx knew that the stunts wasn't going to go up and she didn't even thought of going up..
But it was my stupidity that went on with it..
And Joanna eventually fell towards her left and injure herself..
Like "wtf!!! WTH AM I DOING?!?!"..
I shouldn't even have get the stunts up in the first place..
I fell before and i lost part of my memory before,so i know how it feels like..
And thats the more i shouldn't have made this mistake to injure others..
But in the end..i still make this mistake..

ARGH..
Felt like crying..deep down just now i was feeling so "sour"..
But i knew i cant..or it'll affect the whole team..
Worst of all..my fever went up again because i didn't take panadol..
With my flu..its even harder to breathe properly..
Its totally a tough time during training today..
Really..
And right now..
I seriously have not much confidence in going up anymore stunts..
I mean..wat more stunts can i do if i cant even manage to take good care of my flyer???
Totally a failure..

Anyway..
Gonna start work at 7am ltr..
Its only a few hours away from now..
So no point sleeping..
Dun even feel like sleeping right now..
Well..there's nothing much for me to do..
Sigh..
Going to run right now..
At the same time..
Do some reflection..
Sigh...............