Finally..i get to blog again after such a long while..
Was working in Istana..and the worst thing is..i'm PM Lee Hsien Long's runner..
Scare the shit out of me coz i'm really scared that if i ever do smth wrong,i'll end up in the police station..haha..
Cried when i was working..super stressed..
Chef stressed..captain stressed..and i ended up becoming their 出气筒。
Was being shouted here and there,there and here..
And i stupidly just kept quiet..
Its totally like a night of war..
Damn crazy..
When i msg Shan Dan where she is..she replied saying she was with Edward and Agnes..
Initially wanted a shoulder to cry on..
But since she's with them,shall not disturb them then..
And i ended up hiding at one corner by myself to cry till my tears run dry..
Fortunately,Shawn saw and he came to console me..thank you..

But anyway..its already over and i'm finally going to say I SURRENDER..
Totally used up 110% of my energy in me and i'm both physically and emotionally exhausted..
Physically in a way that i'm always working and not sparing some time for myself to rest..
Emotionally in a way that i'm both stressed up from work and cheerleading..
Its as though i have to be perfect..and coz of that..i'm always doing something that is beyond my means,ending up hurting myself even more..

Maybe thats just me,tryin to be a perfectionist..
But now..i feel i'm really stupid..
Why do i really have to stressed myself and tire myself???
Everyday of my life..
Every min,every sec..its all used up in a way that i dun really have the time to rest at all..
Sigh..maybe i'm just doing all these so that wont think of any other things..
And now i've lost myself..
I have no idea wat i'm doing anymore..
I only noe that i'm doing smth for a reason..
My mind is shut..cant think..
ARGH!!! Wake up CHERYL!!!
Yawn..