Well..
I have to choose to either go training or hosp for tml..
Was in dilemma and i did not noe wat to do..
In the end..coach told me to go to my grandpa..

Was sort of a tough choice for me..
Coz both grandpa and cheerleading are important..
And i cant afford to lose any of them..
Can say that i'm selfish..
But i really hope that i could be tt selfish for once..
To have both at the same time..
To be able to go training while my grandpa is back to his healthy state..
Sigh..however,its impossible...

This issue has made me lose all my appetite..
Lose all my mood for school..
Lose my sleep..
Lose my health..
All i noe is that i'm worried for him all the time..
And that is the only thing i can think abt right now at this moment..
Nothing else..
Everything is so stagnant now that i dunno wats my aim anymore...
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